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It's been a really stressful week, and its only Tuesday. I'm not depressed or anything, I'm just tired. Sigh. Since I've been applying to everything possible (or even the impossible ones) so I've been getting a lot of denial letters recently. And while its not by far not the end of the world, its also not fun. Most of the GA positions I applied for (like accounting, math, education administration) I knew I had only a minimal chance of getting, but the "regretfully no" letter is ick none the less. I feel accomplished in that I'm doing my best (I've done the research, I have a variety of options, school is still a possibility) but it all is starting to wear on me. I've put a lot of pressure on myself to get what I want, and it's starting to just be tiring.
My interview was for a Residencial Hall Director position at a tiny lil school in Nebraska. It looked like a really awesome job, but I think we both discovered that it wasn't the right fit for me. If they offer it to me, I'll have to consider a lot before I take it. But I don't think they will offer it, lol. (Note to self: Phone interviews suck ass).
And then, Virginia Tech. It makes me somewhat disappointed in society. I'm so mad at that kid that killed all those kids, I feel so sorry for the families and friends, and I mourn the loss for such a university. I also somewhat feel for the kid that did it. Bad thing to say right after such a loss, but really... the whole situation is such a sad mark for everyone. I wonder if he reached out for help before making such an unbelieveable choice. If he did have friends, have they tried their hardest? I've faced the decision to give up on someone before, and it sometimes comes to that. Sometimes, people NEED to cut ties to save their sanity, I understand that. But I wonder how his old friends feel? Is that why I connect, because of the fear of guilt? Or do I truly enjoy the connection? Are there stipulations to it? Gah, seriously... serious mental illness is just not a good thing... I thank God nearly every day that I have the capability to find happiness on a consistant basis.
I need a week off. I should've found a way to take off work during break. I am really stressed out. My parents are expectng a lot out of me, work is expecting a lot out of me, and so is school. And then there is me.
There are good points too:
Everyone who got an invitation/announcement from me thought they were hott. And I know its cause they are
My complicated girlfriend left me a message when I really just felt like crying
My dad and mom keep telling me they are proud of me... it sounds stupid, but it really helps
I might have another phone interview coming up, hopefully that one goes better
I've started applying for career counselor positions, and I think I could do that better than other positions I've been applying to
My test went well today
I still haven't heard bad news about Kearney
I lost another four pounds... 34.6 or thereabouts
All the really nice comments about my pictures I posted. I felt really hot.. thank you.
I think a lot of people are coming to my graduation party... if you want to come and somehow I forgot to send you an invite, lemme know and I'll send you a hard copy or a facebook invite
I'm getting a hair cut on Saturday and then "senior" pictures taken (this is a lose interpretation - more like Josh and I going so we have nice pictures for when we both leave and never see each other)
I get to go see Hamlet set in a star trekish theme this weekend... I'm excited to laugh at its craziness
I found my glasses.
I have 6 weeks of paychecks to cash and my taxes to put in... I'm about to a rich lil lady :D
I think I'm gonna try to call Whit either tonight or Thursday night... I'm sure we'll get to catch up on a lot
Anyway, hopefully the weekend will come soon. Not that that is any less stressful than the week. But still, for some reason I look forward to it.
My interview was for a Residencial Hall Director position at a tiny lil school in Nebraska. It looked like a really awesome job, but I think we both discovered that it wasn't the right fit for me. If they offer it to me, I'll have to consider a lot before I take it. But I don't think they will offer it, lol. (Note to self: Phone interviews suck ass).
And then, Virginia Tech. It makes me somewhat disappointed in society. I'm so mad at that kid that killed all those kids, I feel so sorry for the families and friends, and I mourn the loss for such a university. I also somewhat feel for the kid that did it. Bad thing to say right after such a loss, but really... the whole situation is such a sad mark for everyone. I wonder if he reached out for help before making such an unbelieveable choice. If he did have friends, have they tried their hardest? I've faced the decision to give up on someone before, and it sometimes comes to that. Sometimes, people NEED to cut ties to save their sanity, I understand that. But I wonder how his old friends feel? Is that why I connect, because of the fear of guilt? Or do I truly enjoy the connection? Are there stipulations to it? Gah, seriously... serious mental illness is just not a good thing... I thank God nearly every day that I have the capability to find happiness on a consistant basis.
I need a week off. I should've found a way to take off work during break. I am really stressed out. My parents are expectng a lot out of me, work is expecting a lot out of me, and so is school. And then there is me.
There are good points too:
Everyone who got an invitation/announcement from me thought they were hott. And I know its cause they are
My complicated girlfriend left me a message when I really just felt like crying
My dad and mom keep telling me they are proud of me... it sounds stupid, but it really helps
I might have another phone interview coming up, hopefully that one goes better
I've started applying for career counselor positions, and I think I could do that better than other positions I've been applying to
My test went well today
I still haven't heard bad news about Kearney
I lost another four pounds... 34.6 or thereabouts
All the really nice comments about my pictures I posted. I felt really hot.. thank you.
I think a lot of people are coming to my graduation party... if you want to come and somehow I forgot to send you an invite, lemme know and I'll send you a hard copy or a facebook invite
I'm getting a hair cut on Saturday and then "senior" pictures taken (this is a lose interpretation - more like Josh and I going so we have nice pictures for when we both leave and never see each other)
I get to go see Hamlet set in a star trekish theme this weekend... I'm excited to laugh at its craziness
I found my glasses.
I have 6 weeks of paychecks to cash and my taxes to put in... I'm about to a rich lil lady :D
I think I'm gonna try to call Whit either tonight or Thursday night... I'm sure we'll get to catch up on a lot
Anyway, hopefully the weekend will come soon. Not that that is any less stressful than the week. But still, for some reason I look forward to it.