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You know how when you are down and out... and it only seems to breed down and outness? It seems that (thankfully) the opposite is really true too.
Anything can be seen with a positive twist. And it makes life so much easier and friends so much more plentiful.
I had an ABSOLUTELY amazing conversation with Hunter and it just made my day. It's just so easy to be thankful sometimes. I really do think that sometimes it takes breaking up to make up.
Something not so easy to be happy about is another friend. He's really sick and it scares me to death. Cancer steals your strengh, asthma steals your breath, paralysis steals your ability to walk... but depression in some cases steals the "you" that makes "you" so increadibly important. And while petty little humans like me can't understand, I can see the destruction it causes and leaves in its wake. And its just a horrible mess, but afixable mess. There is always hope. ALWAYS HOPE. Hope is a choice, however. And depression makes the choice of hope that much harder. There are a lot of emotions in my head and they all swim around. Sometimes its almost as hard to watch the suffering as it is to be the suffering, Almost being the key word. Decisions are hard to make and have consequences, even if they are the best decision for all parties involved. You are always in my prayers.
I still have no idea what I'm doing, but I'm ok with it right now. I'm mailing out my invitations for my graduation party soon, so that is taking my attention right now. I just know that life is (on the most part) just so freakin' beautiful.
Oh happiness that is :D