hatin' life
i'm working 2 jobs and still cant afford to get out on my own. i need to so bad. i need to get away from HIM. nothing good will come from this relationship. he loves her and always has. he just keeps lying and lying. i really thought he was sincere when he told me he was done with that shit. yes shes far away, but there was a time when she wasnt. and he fucked her every chance he got and i had no idea. i totally trusted him. you would think i'd learned the first time. he doesnt want to be with me. nothing he says can make me believe he does. i cant cheat, it hurts too much. i probably should, it would only be fair. i just cant. i just need to get out....