can't sleep

[justawful]

Though i definetly should be. Tomorrow is gonna be insane. So much shit going on. My mom gets her surgery (i'm terrified), chris starts school (also scared, but in a different way) and i start my new job with chris' mom (peeing myself). I got to wake up in like 4 hours so sleep is probably best. Man, as soon as i get off work at Pearle Vision, i got to go straight to Wendy's. Blah...... And i fell like shit for not having time to go visit my mom. i'll do it first thing tuesday morning. I also have to get my oil changed and car insurance; my hair cut; new clothes; it's just too much to do. I dont even know what i'm going to do once i have all my debts payed off (grandparents paid to get my car fixed a while ago, by the time i pay them back it'll be broken again). I have no idea what to do with the money. Do i want to go to school? I don't know. I mean, i don't not want to go, if that makes any since. I dont want to let chris or his parents down. Man, i gotta go to sleep before i bring myself down anymore.

p.s. brandon, brendan loves you. Nobody is gonna tear you guys apart.Just keep loving him and everyting will work out. It always does with true love. (i'm not gonna comment on your religion aspect)