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omg, my room is so messy.
i went to bed at 5 am this morning, completely sober.
i fought with one of my best friends last night
over the stupidest thing.
i'm scared for finals and my grades and my poor habbits.
i'm so tired from this weekend.
i feel like i didn't get any sleep.
i'm so annoyed with my family right now; i just can't take it.
my mom was talking to me about ellie's senior year spring break
and goes "well i think she's either going to the bahamas or somewhere in mexico."
of course, i flipped out because spring break senior year i was not allowed out of the country.
and last week, my sister and parents went to myrtle beach.
i dunno, i guess i kinda feel left out of things because i never got to do ANYTHING my little sister is doing now.
and i feel left out because every year, i stay at home for spring/christmas break and they travel the world.
like, i know they don't mean to make me feel like this, but it happens and they talk to so openly about it when they're around me, that it makes me feel even more upset.
i fucking hate this.
i went to bed at 5 am this morning, completely sober.
i fought with one of my best friends last night
over the stupidest thing.
i'm scared for finals and my grades and my poor habbits.
i'm so tired from this weekend.
i feel like i didn't get any sleep.
i'm so annoyed with my family right now; i just can't take it.
my mom was talking to me about ellie's senior year spring break
and goes "well i think she's either going to the bahamas or somewhere in mexico."
of course, i flipped out because spring break senior year i was not allowed out of the country.
and last week, my sister and parents went to myrtle beach.
i dunno, i guess i kinda feel left out of things because i never got to do ANYTHING my little sister is doing now.
and i feel left out because every year, i stay at home for spring/christmas break and they travel the world.
like, i know they don't mean to make me feel like this, but it happens and they talk to so openly about it when they're around me, that it makes me feel even more upset.
i fucking hate this.