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[justareverie]

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Well. I haven't been here for a day, and already, I sense it- I think we all do- this place has its moments.

But one can't stay here forever. I made a deal..., as have many of you, if I'm correct. [ his voice sounds as though he's smiling ] And I've the feeling it's much easier said than done, huh?

I'm impatient, I have to admit. To know what

Comments

[yeahscience]

You're a Warden, right? Cause that "deal" thing, that ain't the way it works around here for the rest of us.

[justareverie]

I know. But... we all have one thing in common. We're all here for another chance, aren't we.

[yeahscience]

I thought you was here cause you made a deal. Isn't that, like, what you just said?

[justareverie]

It is. That's my second chance. Getting back what I lost.

[yeahscience]

Oh, yeah?

Guess I oughta be glad at least one of you's not spinning all that Kool-Aid bullshit line about being here for us, then.

[justareverie]

Well, out of us, I seem to think I'm the lucky one. For now.

[yeahscience]

Yeah, I'd say that's pretty accurate.

[justareverie]

Well... I thought death and coming here... was neat, considering the alternative.

[yeahscience]

What alternative is that? Dying and being dead? [Something in his voice says that maybe, just maybe, he'd have preferred that.]

[justareverie]

Dying and then... nothing, I suppose.

... fact is, whether you accept it or not, it appears there's more to you than that.

[yeahscience]

Yeah, yeah. "Acceptance." You're right about that much: it don't mean a thing whether I accept this shit or not.

[justareverie]

Don't think you'd be here if you were an absolutely lost cause.

[yeahscience]

They didn't give me no Warden, though. So I gotta be one tough nut to crack, huh?

[justareverie]

[ He knows it wasn't your intention, but the thought crosses John's mind that explains a lot. He knows what it's to be the outcast in a crowd of outcasts and it tugs at him a little. ]

Never? How long have you been here?

[yeahscience]

Couple weeks. Not that long, I guess, but I dunno what they expect me to do in the meantime except fart around my room. [And try to get his hands on some drugs.]

[justareverie]

You know what I think? Whatever it was that brought you here in the first place, you probably do want to fix it. You're a tough nut maybe, but not a lost cause. I don't really think lost causes can end here.