just another entry... im a little sad... wow...

[justapuppetshow]

so its 3 49 am and i just finished writting a letter to the one that hurt me FIRST. i saw him on saturday and im still so hurt. i still think about him at least once a day if not more. wasnt the hurt supposed to go away? when will it leave? when will i stop thinking about him? when will i stop wishing things had happened differently? THis time last year he still liked and loved me... how i wish he still loved me. hmmm. I dropped Jdizzle yesterday.. i didnt like him. i think i was forcing msyelf to like him.. i told him it wasnt going to work.. cuz i still compare him and every other guy i meet to the guyS that hurt me... stupid, huh? the point of this entry is none... hehe. i dont want ppl to feel bad for me... im OK GUYS.. HONEST. but, i want a boyfriend. ;) i want a boyfriend whos gonna make me forget about " BaCK- uP".. ouch.. i still think about the day he told me i was his " BACK UP"... it still hurts... but like i say.. FUCK A BITCH. hehe.

ok. enough very personal shit....

im going out tomorrow and im having the best fucking time.... besitos...