Love, it seems like only yesterday, you were just a child at play...
With courage comes great responisibility. I changed it a bit, but it's true. We can't be afraid of going for it. We can't be afraid of confronting someone just because we are unsure of how it may end.
I talked to her. Like a small child I blurted out something at a completely inoppurtune moment. We talked about everything on New Year's Eve and are now taking our third break. I cannot fathom the loss I feel right now. I am so sad. So incredibly sad. We are worried that we cannot live without each other, so we need a week apart to confront our own feelings. My feelings (as I am an ever-logical adult) can be broken down into three basic feelings:
1) loss
2) want
3) absolute and utter love
We cannot continue down the road we were are on. I cannot keep being submissive and annoy the hell out of her with my clinginess. She cannot take advantage of my love for her and let her moods get the best of her and take out any anger on me. I love this girl. I'm head over heels in love with her, but we have two hurdles. Two hurdles. Married couples go through this all the time and learn to work through it. I want to work through it. It is a two way street though. She needs to be willing to work it out with me.
Being the ever logical adult, I think we have six legitimate (and crazy) solutions.
1) get married (neither of us believe in divorce.)
2) ignore our issues and let them resurface again in a couple of months and deal with it then
3) break-up for good and if fate brings us back again, so be it. if we wind up losing each other completely, we'll live, but we'll both be empty for a while.
4) we have a baby- that involves someone else, so we HAVE to work it out.
5) we spend a week apart, work through it with a date a week and then gradually get back together and live out our lives in the perfect little world we both can picture in our minds.
6) stay together, involve outside help and finally confront our own problems.
I am partial to number 5 or number 6, but number 1 could work too. ;)
I can't lose this absolutely perfect human being who has made my life about twenty times better just by being in it. I know I can make it until Saturday, but I'd like to squash my feelings of nervousness about it. I am worried that she'll come to a realization I won't like. Crying has become my only solace because if I cry, I at least know I am still feeling. Otherwise I am numb and a large part of me is missing. I don't want a part of me to be missing at all. I want to be complete.
Come back to me love. I was courageous and now, I am a coward again.
I talked to her. Like a small child I blurted out something at a completely inoppurtune moment. We talked about everything on New Year's Eve and are now taking our third break. I cannot fathom the loss I feel right now. I am so sad. So incredibly sad. We are worried that we cannot live without each other, so we need a week apart to confront our own feelings. My feelings (as I am an ever-logical adult) can be broken down into three basic feelings:
1) loss
2) want
3) absolute and utter love
We cannot continue down the road we were are on. I cannot keep being submissive and annoy the hell out of her with my clinginess. She cannot take advantage of my love for her and let her moods get the best of her and take out any anger on me. I love this girl. I'm head over heels in love with her, but we have two hurdles. Two hurdles. Married couples go through this all the time and learn to work through it. I want to work through it. It is a two way street though. She needs to be willing to work it out with me.
Being the ever logical adult, I think we have six legitimate (and crazy) solutions.
1) get married (neither of us believe in divorce.)
2) ignore our issues and let them resurface again in a couple of months and deal with it then
3) break-up for good and if fate brings us back again, so be it. if we wind up losing each other completely, we'll live, but we'll both be empty for a while.
4) we have a baby- that involves someone else, so we HAVE to work it out.
5) we spend a week apart, work through it with a date a week and then gradually get back together and live out our lives in the perfect little world we both can picture in our minds.
6) stay together, involve outside help and finally confront our own problems.
I am partial to number 5 or number 6, but number 1 could work too. ;)
I can't lose this absolutely perfect human being who has made my life about twenty times better just by being in it. I know I can make it until Saturday, but I'd like to squash my feelings of nervousness about it. I am worried that she'll come to a realization I won't like. Crying has become my only solace because if I cry, I at least know I am still feeling. Otherwise I am numb and a large part of me is missing. I don't want a part of me to be missing at all. I want to be complete.
Come back to me love. I was courageous and now, I am a coward again.