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I havent updated in like ever, today was depressing i didnt leave the house i waited for my b.f to call he never did i just waited by the phone like somethin wounld happen. i should have known better. i dont think he really cares like he says. i think he just keeps me on the side for when he wants me to be around. everyone i told about this has told me to brake up so i dont get hurt. but i cant hes the only thing i got. i was on myspace like alot today i saw so many pretty girls and like i just got so upset i just want to be pretty i know im going to hear shit about this but here im not going to lie about how i feel anymore. Maybe if i was prettier or have a better personility or just good enough i would get a boyyfriend that would make me happier then more then hum what 5 days or so. On the other hand itll never happen so ill just deal. im so sick of feeling disappoointed in me. i just want to be happy is that so bad.