Fuck, shit, damn, and other 4 letter words
Torn. Utterly torn. This fucking internet got its claws into me again, and I hate myself for it. I had finally reached this place where nothing bothered me, and I could laugh at the things that once made me cringe. Now I'm back in that dark place where the littlest word slices me up and bleeds me dry.
I've noticed a change in people since my arrival here. Those I once confided in and considered friends are either full-fledged enemies now, or so contorted from their original selves that I don't even recognize them anymore. I'm sure the same can be said of me, I'm not claiming to be above it.
Two of the friendships I held the dearest, two that I've held longer than any other on this horrible machine, have been particularly rocky as of late, which honestly leaves me staggering. These two have always been my rocks, my steadies, my shoulders when a cry was needed. One, thankfully, seems to be on the mend, but the other just keeps hurtling faster and faster into the recesses of nothingness, and I find myself powerless to stop it.
So now do I abandon this sinking ship and haul ass for shore, or do I stick it out? I just don't know anymore. I'm kind of tired of drowning. Maybe another good scream'll do me some good.
I've noticed a change in people since my arrival here. Those I once confided in and considered friends are either full-fledged enemies now, or so contorted from their original selves that I don't even recognize them anymore. I'm sure the same can be said of me, I'm not claiming to be above it.
Two of the friendships I held the dearest, two that I've held longer than any other on this horrible machine, have been particularly rocky as of late, which honestly leaves me staggering. These two have always been my rocks, my steadies, my shoulders when a cry was needed. One, thankfully, seems to be on the mend, but the other just keeps hurtling faster and faster into the recesses of nothingness, and I find myself powerless to stop it.
So now do I abandon this sinking ship and haul ass for shore, or do I stick it out? I just don't know anymore. I'm kind of tired of drowning. Maybe another good scream'll do me some good.