I'm such a stupid, stupid dreamer.

[justalildazed]

Well.. tonight i was told at about 8:00 that my poor grandma had a massive heart attack.. i love her soooo much and i pray that she fucking pulls through.. i mean she is the best.. she of all people doesnt deserve this.. i at least want to be able to see her and tell her i love her.. because i do oh so very much.. im like heartbroken right now.. today was such a good day.. like wtf is this for every good thing that happends to me.. do 1000 bad things have to happen? i just i dont get karma.. maybe because there is no such thing as good karma.. regardless what ever the fuck anybody has to say... and one thing i think im realizing is that im 100% honest and truely getting over that person... which when im truely over that person im gonna feel sooooo much better about myself.. gosh i cant wait for that day... all i know is i really need my friends right now... sooooooooo will see who pulls threw for me...

god such a bad night nothing good come when its snows...

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