wake me up when 2005 ends like 46 days left could it go faster?
i need to get over you... like seriously.. lets think about it.. i went a whole fucking month.. yes literally a whole fucking month without seeing you.. and the second you come back why would you call me? and now i see you more then ever.. ewwww why do you have to be so much like you?
i feel so crappy.. i mean not because of that that i bitched about above because i hate the fucking this year sooooo much.. 2005 has seriosuly not been what i hoped for.. i mean my poor grandma like thanksgiving in the nasr/giannini household has been canceld because of how sick she is.. i mean who know if she will be out for x-mas and then when shit like this happends you think of all the times u could of went to go see grandma and visit her but instead you working at some stupid job.. or hanging out with stupid people every stupid day..
and my family!.. its sooo falling apart my mom is so distant and i hate it so fucking much.. i hate everything about my situations.. and im scared for my dad becuz of the winter with his job.. i mean nothing is going right NOTHING... im so scared to get close to people becuz im starting to think im the bad luck.. everything good always fucking ends.. and i think it maybe becuz of me..
i could really use a good friend
and a fifth of something...
and a pack of newport 100's
and a new life...
i feel so crappy.. i mean not because of that that i bitched about above because i hate the fucking this year sooooo much.. 2005 has seriosuly not been what i hoped for.. i mean my poor grandma like thanksgiving in the nasr/giannini household has been canceld because of how sick she is.. i mean who know if she will be out for x-mas and then when shit like this happends you think of all the times u could of went to go see grandma and visit her but instead you working at some stupid job.. or hanging out with stupid people every stupid day..
and my family!.. its sooo falling apart my mom is so distant and i hate it so fucking much.. i hate everything about my situations.. and im scared for my dad becuz of the winter with his job.. i mean nothing is going right NOTHING... im so scared to get close to people becuz im starting to think im the bad luck.. everything good always fucking ends.. and i think it maybe becuz of me..
i could really use a good friend
and a fifth of something...
and a pack of newport 100's
and a new life...