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im scared. of myself sometimes. i feel myself giving up. on people, on my future, on love. she's broken me. but still i can't leave her. im so weak. is it all worth it?
its been a shitty week, a shitty month. Im just so tired and i feel so lost. desperate. to do something to break free of all these feelings and bullshit.
theres so much going on with me i dont know where to start, i don't even want to deal with anything anymore. and i know i cant do that-i know it will just get worse.
i need to grow up and harden up. but i dont know how.
maybe this is just what being in love is all about-but somehow i know i dont believe that...
Anyway...I know ill be okay. I have so much going for me right now. I need to stay focused. School is great, I have great friends, great support, I love the direction my life is going and i am so excited about it. Im goign to do something important with my life, and im nnot going to waste time anymore...im so ready , i just need to stay strong.
its been a shitty week, a shitty month. Im just so tired and i feel so lost. desperate. to do something to break free of all these feelings and bullshit.
theres so much going on with me i dont know where to start, i don't even want to deal with anything anymore. and i know i cant do that-i know it will just get worse.
i need to grow up and harden up. but i dont know how.
maybe this is just what being in love is all about-but somehow i know i dont believe that...
Anyway...I know ill be okay. I have so much going for me right now. I need to stay focused. School is great, I have great friends, great support, I love the direction my life is going and i am so excited about it. Im goign to do something important with my life, and im nnot going to waste time anymore...im so ready , i just need to stay strong.