just when you think life couldnt possibly get any worse...
it does.
bad week.
first off monday i got a letter in the mail saying that i owe cingular wireless 733 dollars by the end of november or they are taking me to court. im not going to have it, so i dont know what im going to do about that...but i dont care about that right now...
Jamie is going to have outpatient surgery tomorrow to remove a cancerous cyst from the outer lining of her uterus. I almost collapsed when she told me what the doctor had found. I think she was in shock. shes being so brave though-i keep telling her its going to be okay, they are going to remove it and then everything will be fine-she agrees with me and doesnt seem scared at all. thats jamie. shes known that there has been a problem for a couple months now and has had tests done and stuff but didnt tell me bc she didnt want me to worry about her., and because of what i went through a couple months ago. that upset me, i wish she would of told me. she says thats why she has seem so distant and why she has been as close to me, and why we havent been together as much. that does explain a lot. but i just dont know why she didnt tell me-i would of helped her through it. but maybe i think she might of wanted to push it as far away as she could and not telling me or hardly anyone else would help her do that. I'm scared. I can't stop thinking about it, how unfair it is, she already has so many health problems-shes only 18-she shouldnt have to go through this.
but im trying to think positively, im sure it will turn out okay and i have to keep telling myself that. if jamie is strong enough to do it, then i should be too. I'm just so scared.
Diane just told me that she is going to a private NO DOUBT show friday in nyc. words cannot explain how jealous i am. Have fun with my babies diane! tell them i said hi and love them more then the world lol. I wish i could be there....
bad week.
first off monday i got a letter in the mail saying that i owe cingular wireless 733 dollars by the end of november or they are taking me to court. im not going to have it, so i dont know what im going to do about that...but i dont care about that right now...
Jamie is going to have outpatient surgery tomorrow to remove a cancerous cyst from the outer lining of her uterus. I almost collapsed when she told me what the doctor had found. I think she was in shock. shes being so brave though-i keep telling her its going to be okay, they are going to remove it and then everything will be fine-she agrees with me and doesnt seem scared at all. thats jamie. shes known that there has been a problem for a couple months now and has had tests done and stuff but didnt tell me bc she didnt want me to worry about her., and because of what i went through a couple months ago. that upset me, i wish she would of told me. she says thats why she has seem so distant and why she has been as close to me, and why we havent been together as much. that does explain a lot. but i just dont know why she didnt tell me-i would of helped her through it. but maybe i think she might of wanted to push it as far away as she could and not telling me or hardly anyone else would help her do that. I'm scared. I can't stop thinking about it, how unfair it is, she already has so many health problems-shes only 18-she shouldnt have to go through this.
but im trying to think positively, im sure it will turn out okay and i have to keep telling myself that. if jamie is strong enough to do it, then i should be too. I'm just so scared.
Diane just told me that she is going to a private NO DOUBT show friday in nyc. words cannot explain how jealous i am. Have fun with my babies diane! tell them i said hi and love them more then the world lol. I wish i could be there....