"its my gut feeling-its not happening for me..."

[justagirl20]

well last night didnt turn out how i expected it to. me and jamie had plans to go watch the fireworks at the park, but she called me up and hour before we were suppose to go and told me she couldnt go bc her grandma didnt feel up to it. so her and the fam were just gonna stay home. i was kind of upset, i wanted to spend the night with her, but oh well...a little after she called me chris and jason came by and tried to persuade me to go to jealousy's to get drunk with them. but i wasnt feeling up to it, so i gave them a ride and came home...i talked to roy online and he invited me down to norman to drink with him and stuff, i was considering it but i fell asleep before i called him back...i woke up and like 9 this morning, i guess i was really really tired.
It looks like AOL is probably going to hire me but im not gonna start until the 20th if they do, that sucks bc i need money NOW....ive never been this broke before in a long time. ugh. i might work at diversified or something for 2 weeks, i dont know. still figuring out what to do...
jennifer is getting out of jail the 14th. thats so great. i really hope i get to see her soon.
overall things arent the greatest right now for me, i could feel the stress the minute i got off the plane last friday. i hope things start to turn around...
anyway im going to get going....lots of stuff to do
oh before i forget-HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY EMILY!!!!!!! :) i hope you had a great one :)