Inspired To Write Again.....

[justadancerrr]

Here I sit....looking the the window panes of where I wish to be. Once I step into the doorway of what should feel like home ends up being hell. Everyday it feels like my world caves in a bit more and the only thing that saves me in my love for something greater in life. There are days I wish for death then there are days I thank god I'm alive, but the days of wishing are becoming stronger than the ones where I thank god. Times like this make me miss my love....I can't believe he doesn't want my heart....the only person I ever let in and I will regret it forever. You left me alone and dead inside.....I asked you never to make promises that you couldn't keep, but you did knowing how it would affect me. You let me cry and beg like a pathetic human being.......you promised you'd take care of me forever, that you'd never hurt me like others have in my path through life, that you'd love me and only.....you even asked me to marry you when we were dancing  outside your patio to our song because you said there was no one you rather be with than me because I made you happy.....you killed me more than you will ever know......it hurts less now though when you torn my heart out and left it on the floor to beat frantically until it couldn't beat anymore.

So here's to the days I was alive inside. O how I miss you. All I can do now it move forward and never look back.