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January 29, 2019
Prompt: who is someone you miss?
It depends what you're asking me. I miss a lot of people. I miss my granny who isn't here anymore.
I miss my Mama Vicki who almost died a few weeks ago.
Missing and longing for people are weird. Nothing is ever 100% great, fun, perfect. Yet we think about things and times that positively left some sort of impact on our lives and we chose to remember that as the only times that existed.
An example of this is Chente. I miss him all the time. I miss the friendship we had. I miss him being to my go to. But someone who'll drop you for a girlfriend, boyfriend, etc and not for the years of friendship you had is not someone you want in your life.
I miss people all the time. There is never just one person. There's always several. I miss my dad now that he lives so far. Miss my sister, especially since all the drama that's been going on with my mom. We still talk pretty frequently but I wish I could spend more time with her.
I miss my mom even though she's a selfish asshole. Sorry, that's not very poetic.
But I just remember if they aren't here anymore it's for a reason. If they are here and just far it's all a matter of how I reach out and contact them.
My Mama Vicki almost dying shook the shit out of me. I thought she was a goner. I couldn't handle that right now.