Six Weeks...
...and what a difference it has made! I feel like I have been reborn almost...a big weight lifted in a sense. These past few weeks were something I have been needing for a long, long time. And I finally have the sense of closure I wanted for my daughter's passing thanks to a wonderful social worker that helped me through it with a letter and beautiful words sent free in a park at the highest point in York County. It still hurts, but it is now bearable. I have learned so much, and let go of so much. So much progress has been made. I saw progress before I left CDR, but since I have been out in the "real world" again, I am seeing so much more.
I'm back in touch with myself. I just had a wonderful evening...an evening spent with a friend's granddaughter. We went outside and sat for a bit, and then pitched a softball back and forth to each other (first time I have ever done that...she taught me!), and then we walked down to the bridge and watched the water flow underneath and then walked down to the edge and dipped our fingers in. How cool! :) We walked back and sat outside with my Codybelle and just talked for a bit. Found out we have common music tastes even! LOL I sat in her bedroom with her and listened to some of her cd's while she did her homework. What an absolutely wonderful, peaceful, calm evening. I haven't had evening like this in so long. I haven't felt an inner peace like this in so long. I have been wanting to go home...wherever home may be for so long...and now I am there. I have found home. It was here inside of me the whole time. I am in the here and in the now. I'm at peace and I am home and it feels awesome!
I'm back in touch with myself. I just had a wonderful evening...an evening spent with a friend's granddaughter. We went outside and sat for a bit, and then pitched a softball back and forth to each other (first time I have ever done that...she taught me!), and then we walked down to the bridge and watched the water flow underneath and then walked down to the edge and dipped our fingers in. How cool! :) We walked back and sat outside with my Codybelle and just talked for a bit. Found out we have common music tastes even! LOL I sat in her bedroom with her and listened to some of her cd's while she did her homework. What an absolutely wonderful, peaceful, calm evening. I haven't had evening like this in so long. I haven't felt an inner peace like this in so long. I have been wanting to go home...wherever home may be for so long...and now I am there. I have found home. It was here inside of me the whole time. I am in the here and in the now. I'm at peace and I am home and it feels awesome!