I am officially a highschool graduate. It only took me forever.
Huh. Funny...it doesn't feel like I'm done. Maybe it'll soak in over time...I'm just so used to having it hang over my head, nagging me, sucking what little self esteem I have out of me. I know it should never have bothered me, it's not as if I didn't have valid reasons to not have finished. Credits disappearing, being sick constantly, and then by the time I was 18, I had to go and support myself and somehow find the time and energy to attend...ugh. I feel like I'm making excuses for myself. Maybe it's because I did give up for about a year...I gave up on everthing. Didn't care anymore. Oh well. All that matters is that I came back and finished, right? Then why don't I feel excited...?
Now if I could just be healthy...
I don't want to complain, but it just gets so...OLD. Just once, I'd like feel rested. Wake up refreshed and not hurt ANYWHERE. But no. Besides having insomnia for as long as I can remember, if it's not one thing, it's another. Today your toe will throb...well now your achilles is acting up. Well...now you're just going to throw up for a week. And hell, let's have weekly migraines while we're at it. And now your weight will fluctuate for NO APPARENT REASON!
I know I don't have it all that bad, in comparison to others. This isn't meant to be a pity party. But I AM human, and I DO get frustrated when you try and do everthing you're supposed to and it just doesn't seem to matter. Take your insulin, get some exercise, eat right, soak your feet, check this, do that, don't do that...and for what? I'm still flippin' miserable and my body is giving me the finger.
Yeah, well...fuck you too.
Now if I could just be healthy...
I don't want to complain, but it just gets so...OLD. Just once, I'd like feel rested. Wake up refreshed and not hurt ANYWHERE. But no. Besides having insomnia for as long as I can remember, if it's not one thing, it's another. Today your toe will throb...well now your achilles is acting up. Well...now you're just going to throw up for a week. And hell, let's have weekly migraines while we're at it. And now your weight will fluctuate for NO APPARENT REASON!
I know I don't have it all that bad, in comparison to others. This isn't meant to be a pity party. But I AM human, and I DO get frustrated when you try and do everthing you're supposed to and it just doesn't seem to matter. Take your insulin, get some exercise, eat right, soak your feet, check this, do that, don't do that...and for what? I'm still flippin' miserable and my body is giving me the finger.
Yeah, well...fuck you too.