(intraship communications, subspace transmission, personal log)
James, I'd appreciate it if you could contact me as soon as possible. I have some news regarding the alternate Pike and a request to make.
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Spock, I know that you need time alone and I appreciate that. But I'm worried about you. I know, it's entirely illogical and that you can look after yourself. I just can't help it. You don't even have to come and see me if you don't want to, just let me know you're alright - and if you need anything I'm here as always. I couldn't bear it if anything happened to you. Don't push yourself alright?
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I know you're still catching up with James, but whenever you want to start on comms rotation let me know. And remember there's no rush! For the first few weeks I'll put you on shift with myself and a few others while you brush up on your languages and be sure to let me know when you're free to start on your Romulan and Vulcan. If you need anything else like dictionaries or any other requests, be sure to comm it through to me.
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G, let me know when Pavel gets there. I know he's old enough to look after himself and I hate that I was so distracted - I'm not even sure what the hell is going on with him and Hikaru, I've not seen either of them. But I'm still worried about him. I don't have to tell you to look after him obviously, I know you will. Look after yourself too okay? Everything is going wrong and I don't want something bad to happen to you too.
Wish you were here (like REALLY wish it), Ny x
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I'll be revising the duties slightly in the next few weeks to make room for a new crew member. No hour changes, some of you just might have other instructions. Any issues with this, let me know.
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I honestly don't know how I missed so much going on right under my nose. Maybe I was just too concerned with myself and how this alternate realities thing is affecting me. But Pavel has gone to the Farragut because of I-don't-know-what with Hikaru. I know he'll be fine with Gaila - gods, if anyone can cheer that boy up it'll be her - but I feel like I should have been there instead of worrying about my relationship with Spock. He's so young and I encouraged him to say what he was feeling. For senior Comms Officer I'm showing poor signs of communication right now.
I have no idea what James and Leo are going to say when I tell them I went to see the other Pike. I don't even know why I did it, it was so creepy looking into the face of the man who was my mentor, who helped me through so much during the Academy and having to remember it's not actually him. I feel... I'm not sure what it is. Sympathy maybe? There's no doubt that the safest place for him is in that brig. But hearing about his world... I guess I wouldn't wish that on anyone. It sounds horrible. An empire? Knowing what people are capable of, I don't doubt his explanation for one second. But we all have to remember he's not the Pike we know and this isn't his world.
I don't even know what's going on with Spock. His? What the hell does that mean? Other Pike (it sounds better than Pher) said that Spock was his now. Gods, that scares me to death. I feel like he's slipping away and if he walks away from me... at least I'll know it was his choice, even if it breaks me. It'll be what he wants, what's right for him, the only thing I want. I always thought that was me. Now? Not so sure. But the thought of someone messing with him makes me sick to my stomach. Maybe I can get Other Pike to understand that you can't just do that to people, claim them or whatever they do in that world.
It sounds so trivial to be excited about having another linguist enthusiast on board, what with everything that's happening. But I've always admired George Kirk (haven't we all?) and while the circumstances of him being on board is way too weird to think about (I knew I should have paid more attention in relative and theoretical physics) I'm strangely excited to be working with him. He's like I imagine James will be like when he matures a little. Smart,hard working and very astute - something I'll only ever admit where James can't ever read it. His ego has enough flattery. Maybe now I can finally wrinkle out those kinks in my Klingon glottals.
Hopefully laying my thoughts out in a linear fashion will help me work through them and I can finally get some sleep. I know it's stupid to pull double shifts but I can't seem to relax. I feel exhausted, so maybe I won't have to resort to Bones hypospraying the hell out of my neck. James isn't the only one that hates that.
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Spock, I know that you need time alone and I appreciate that. But I'm worried about you. I know, it's entirely illogical and that you can look after yourself. I just can't help it. You don't even have to come and see me if you don't want to, just let me know you're alright - and if you need anything I'm here as always. I couldn't bear it if anything happened to you. Don't push yourself alright?
--
I know you're still catching up with James, but whenever you want to start on comms rotation let me know. And remember there's no rush! For the first few weeks I'll put you on shift with myself and a few others while you brush up on your languages and be sure to let me know when you're free to start on your Romulan and Vulcan. If you need anything else like dictionaries or any other requests, be sure to comm it through to me.
--
G, let me know when Pavel gets there. I know he's old enough to look after himself and I hate that I was so distracted - I'm not even sure what the hell is going on with him and Hikaru, I've not seen either of them. But I'm still worried about him. I don't have to tell you to look after him obviously, I know you will. Look after yourself too okay? Everything is going wrong and I don't want something bad to happen to you too.
Wish you were here (like REALLY wish it), Ny x
--
I'll be revising the duties slightly in the next few weeks to make room for a new crew member. No hour changes, some of you just might have other instructions. Any issues with this, let me know.
--
I honestly don't know how I missed so much going on right under my nose. Maybe I was just too concerned with myself and how this alternate realities thing is affecting me. But Pavel has gone to the Farragut because of I-don't-know-what with Hikaru. I know he'll be fine with Gaila - gods, if anyone can cheer that boy up it'll be her - but I feel like I should have been there instead of worrying about my relationship with Spock. He's so young and I encouraged him to say what he was feeling. For senior Comms Officer I'm showing poor signs of communication right now.
I have no idea what James and Leo are going to say when I tell them I went to see the other Pike. I don't even know why I did it, it was so creepy looking into the face of the man who was my mentor, who helped me through so much during the Academy and having to remember it's not actually him. I feel... I'm not sure what it is. Sympathy maybe? There's no doubt that the safest place for him is in that brig. But hearing about his world... I guess I wouldn't wish that on anyone. It sounds horrible. An empire? Knowing what people are capable of, I don't doubt his explanation for one second. But we all have to remember he's not the Pike we know and this isn't his world.
I don't even know what's going on with Spock. His? What the hell does that mean? Other Pike (it sounds better than Pher) said that Spock was his now. Gods, that scares me to death. I feel like he's slipping away and if he walks away from me... at least I'll know it was his choice, even if it breaks me. It'll be what he wants, what's right for him, the only thing I want. I always thought that was me. Now? Not so sure. But the thought of someone messing with him makes me sick to my stomach. Maybe I can get Other Pike to understand that you can't just do that to people, claim them or whatever they do in that world.
It sounds so trivial to be excited about having another linguist enthusiast on board, what with everything that's happening. But I've always admired George Kirk (haven't we all?) and while the circumstances of him being on board is way too weird to think about (I knew I should have paid more attention in relative and theoretical physics) I'm strangely excited to be working with him. He's like I imagine James will be like when he matures a little. Smart,hard working and very astute - something I'll only ever admit where James can't ever read it. His ego has enough flattery. Maybe now I can finally wrinkle out those kinks in my Klingon glottals.
Hopefully laying my thoughts out in a linear fashion will help me work through them and I can finally get some sleep. I know it's stupid to pull double shifts but I can't seem to relax. I feel exhausted, so maybe I won't have to resort to Bones hypospraying the hell out of my neck. James isn't the only one that hates that.