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I kinda forgot this thing existed. I dunno what made me think of it.
Anywho... hmm whats new...
Well.. turned out i do have cervical cancer.. thats been scary.
Oh and im now 7 1/2 months pregnant. With little Aiden William.
Cody.. the guy i was with before is the father. He's also not who i thought he was. He was just too immature with anger issues and too into drinking to be a part of my life. So i kicked him to the curb... and he got his new girlfriend pregnant now! hah wow what a winner, right? Yeah. So its been tough. Hah actually its been fucking almost unbearable.
But im truckin through it.
The hardest part i think has been losing all my friends. I didn't think i could be so lonely. And i didn't think my friends were the type to drop me because i can't party either. Shows how much i know i suppose.
I rushed into the relationship to get over Zak.. and i thought it was working.. until it got me here.. and i realized i never really cared for cody like i should've.. it was my way of trying to get over zak. Which just made things a lot more difficult.
Ive tried to make things right with everyone.. but for some reason ill never be good enough for some people. I don't think some people realize that i am human and actually have some pretty intense feelings and im very easily broken.. though i can hide it well when i want.
Im ready for Aiden to be born... im ready to put all my love into something unconditional.
Anywho... hmm whats new...
Well.. turned out i do have cervical cancer.. thats been scary.
Oh and im now 7 1/2 months pregnant. With little Aiden William.
Cody.. the guy i was with before is the father. He's also not who i thought he was. He was just too immature with anger issues and too into drinking to be a part of my life. So i kicked him to the curb... and he got his new girlfriend pregnant now! hah wow what a winner, right? Yeah. So its been tough. Hah actually its been fucking almost unbearable.
But im truckin through it.
The hardest part i think has been losing all my friends. I didn't think i could be so lonely. And i didn't think my friends were the type to drop me because i can't party either. Shows how much i know i suppose.
I rushed into the relationship to get over Zak.. and i thought it was working.. until it got me here.. and i realized i never really cared for cody like i should've.. it was my way of trying to get over zak. Which just made things a lot more difficult.
Ive tried to make things right with everyone.. but for some reason ill never be good enough for some people. I don't think some people realize that i am human and actually have some pretty intense feelings and im very easily broken.. though i can hide it well when i want.
Im ready for Aiden to be born... im ready to put all my love into something unconditional.