rambling random
so i havent updated for a while due to absence of internet availability.
Things are still pretty crazy. I'm still isolated from any social contact other than whats in this house, work, or school, by strict orders of dr. dale. Ive managed to sneak out a plenty amount of times to be with the anti-christ himself Erik, late late at night, but other than that, ive basically been sleeping my youth away. Sneaking out is also no longer a possibility because I was some how caught and my father installed a security system for this reason. I dont understand.
Ah self pity. I realize that i am just doing the norm and feeling sorry for myself, but I just miss how life was. I despise watching everyone else's happiness around me. My jealousy is becoming such a burden.
Also, with so much free time on my hands, one may think that I may improve myself. Do something productive. No. I don't. I manage to fuck up all the things that i spent somewhat of time on. so fuck bettering myself it doesn't work.
Things are still pretty crazy. I'm still isolated from any social contact other than whats in this house, work, or school, by strict orders of dr. dale. Ive managed to sneak out a plenty amount of times to be with the anti-christ himself Erik, late late at night, but other than that, ive basically been sleeping my youth away. Sneaking out is also no longer a possibility because I was some how caught and my father installed a security system for this reason. I dont understand.
Ah self pity. I realize that i am just doing the norm and feeling sorry for myself, but I just miss how life was. I despise watching everyone else's happiness around me. My jealousy is becoming such a burden.
Also, with so much free time on my hands, one may think that I may improve myself. Do something productive. No. I don't. I manage to fuck up all the things that i spent somewhat of time on. so fuck bettering myself it doesn't work.