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another year gone.
im here in mexico and like. as boring as it can get, i truly love my family so much. its ridiculous. they are the funniest people i know and are just so refreshing to be around.
as i sit here in the house, i cant help but feeling its the last time we're all together. lorena's married. martha and the babies live in germany. im off to college. and to top it off my grandpa has been terribly sick for the past few years. there are just so many memories in the house. its creepy. ive been coming here since before i was a year old. its wierd how its still the same. everything in this house is almost exactly as its been for the past 17 years. its a place ntouched by time. yet there is such a differnt feeling. maybe its because everyone is growing up. maybe its because noone but my grandparents really live here anymore. maybe its because everyone has started their own lives. but there is such a wierd feeling in the air.
this is the last time we'll all be together. i know it. i can feel it. and so can everyone else. its become sort of this unspoken thing. it makes me want to cry.
on a lighter side, its 2008. wierd. i remember looking to 2008 with such awe in like 4th grade and thinking "whoaa ill be graduating from high school!!!" it seemed so far away. i honestly cannot believe its here. its sort of bitter sweet.
i come back home tomorrow. im excited but also not. haha im such a confused mess right now. but its like 130 here so i have an excuse.
im here in mexico and like. as boring as it can get, i truly love my family so much. its ridiculous. they are the funniest people i know and are just so refreshing to be around.
as i sit here in the house, i cant help but feeling its the last time we're all together. lorena's married. martha and the babies live in germany. im off to college. and to top it off my grandpa has been terribly sick for the past few years. there are just so many memories in the house. its creepy. ive been coming here since before i was a year old. its wierd how its still the same. everything in this house is almost exactly as its been for the past 17 years. its a place ntouched by time. yet there is such a differnt feeling. maybe its because everyone is growing up. maybe its because noone but my grandparents really live here anymore. maybe its because everyone has started their own lives. but there is such a wierd feeling in the air.
this is the last time we'll all be together. i know it. i can feel it. and so can everyone else. its become sort of this unspoken thing. it makes me want to cry.
on a lighter side, its 2008. wierd. i remember looking to 2008 with such awe in like 4th grade and thinking "whoaa ill be graduating from high school!!!" it seemed so far away. i honestly cannot believe its here. its sort of bitter sweet.
i come back home tomorrow. im excited but also not. haha im such a confused mess right now. but its like 130 here so i have an excuse.