Most Selfish award should go to me
Okay so I have been a little pissed and deeply hurt about my father not returning my calls the past six months. The fact that I had one phone call during the whole time. And well I've basically written out of my life the past month and I walk in from work check my messages btw I was pretty emotional because P****** came in for a massage after not seeing him for two years emotions hit me by surprise. Anyway I didn't want to return his call but he didn't sound normal so I call. I was worried he might be in the hospital but I think it is depression. He lost his foot back in September due to infection of a burn. He is going through his own shit and here I am all thinking about ME,ME,ME like always. He wanted to check in on us again. He told me he plans to walk again and he was crying so I cried. I just told him to keep letting me know how he was doing. But I couldn't really conversate because I would have been sobbing and that would make him feel bad. God I love my Dad so much. I was a daddy's girl growing up and it's just hard to not see him at least on a monthly basis. I wish I could see him but he doesn't want that. He doesn't live that close to me but damn I miss him. I keep having these dreams that he still is back with my Mom and that we are living under one roof like when I was in junior high. It's like "Yvette grow the fuck up!".
I do feel better that I wasn't actually snubbed but he is in his own depression. Not good but not rejected. Ya know?
I do feel better that I wasn't actually snubbed but he is in his own depression. Not good but not rejected. Ya know?