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[deep_red_bells]

I don't know what to do with myself now.

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[monticello_tj]

What did you do with yourself before?

[deep_red_bells]

Honestly? I can't remember.

[monticello_tj]

Then why do you quit - to run from that which you fear beyond reason, or to rediscover the root of who you are?

[deep_red_bells]

It's probably a bit of both. Mostly, I wanted to break the cycle? But I don't think it's in me to just do nothing. I never used to think of myself as driven, but for the last couple of years I've had this...quest. I think I need to find something to keep me busy. Something to work towards.

[monticello_tj]

It is no crime to fear; nor is it a crime to turn away from that which bring you pain. I believe, though, that you understand it takes much strength to do what you have done, and that, likewise, such strength should not be wasted in idle pursuits.

[deep_red_bells]

I should put my energy towards something worthwhile, in other words?

[monticello_tj]

You are a hero, are you not? Heroes may never rest, even when they wish it so.

[deep_red_bells]

I don't know if I'd say I was a hero...I just did my job.

[monticello_tj]

Madam, that is what heroes say. I have heard similar from my own lips. Paltry few take on the task and duties of a hero because they wish it; rather because they have no choice, either by nature, by job, or by necessity.

[deep_red_bells]

...True.

[monticello_tj]

In similar vein, I do hope you do not allow lives to be lost through neglect. No one may hold you responsible for the course your life would have taken had you not made this choice, but - do be mindful. I admit I worry for both you and Miss Callahan, though you do not know me.

[deep_red_bells]

I appreciate that.

Sorry, I didn't--I'm Baileigh. Solis.

[monticello_tj]

My name is Thomas Jefferson.

[deep_red_bells]

Oh wow, your parents had a sense of humor, didn't they?

[monticello_tj]

It was not so well-known when I was named, Ms. Solis.