tip of the iceburg

[just_ride_it]

i hope kate doesn't hate me now... (unless ur reading this then feel free) but for my writting... i hope she doesn't.... she seemed alrite in the morning... but then i dunno.... i got really pissed off at cez's friend jess for telling me what to do and that i was being irresponcible... but she was rite.. i think thats why i got so cranky at her... there was no reson for her to be sat there for all that time... it was like torturing her... i don't know if we could have moved her... at the time it seemed not but again to not try seemes careless... it might have made things worse but it also mitght have made them better... and wud at the least have gotten us all home safe before 7 in the morning... i knew what i should be doing... but i just "didn't" and wow does guilt hit like a wave when u ignor it... she was all "don't worry i'll lie..." ohhh that one cut... i wasn't even thinking about that fact that i had left her with a near complete stranger for over an hour... in a queue... and then just fucked off inside too... so even if it was something from the scary dyke that made her go all funy... it was still basicly my fault for not looking out for her... ohhh look i've made it all selfpittying now too... Grrrr...!!!!

I need to buck my ideas up...!!! find some common sence... and self control...!!! if not for me then for those around me...