ooi.
i dont know what to think. ime really trying not too but the thought that the way the rest of my summer or life could be determined by a dr. tomorrow scares me...
what am i to think?
i honestly cant think of a time when ive felt so damn helpless, weak and vunerable. its so scary...ime not a weak person by any means and here i am. possibly struck with something that could strike me down. i dont know how to feel. but i feel it all.
anxiety, fear, restlessness (thanks nic), and some relief from my friends who keep reassuring me that this is probably nothing.
i got sick to my stomach tonight because i was so scared. so scared of losing myself. ime sitting here crying because ime so scared...why is this happening?
ime going to brush my teeth...brb.
-sigh-
well this certaintly tops the cake.
-renee
what am i to think?
i honestly cant think of a time when ive felt so damn helpless, weak and vunerable. its so scary...ime not a weak person by any means and here i am. possibly struck with something that could strike me down. i dont know how to feel. but i feel it all.
anxiety, fear, restlessness (thanks nic), and some relief from my friends who keep reassuring me that this is probably nothing.
i got sick to my stomach tonight because i was so scared. so scared of losing myself. ime sitting here crying because ime so scared...why is this happening?
ime going to brush my teeth...brb.
-sigh-
well this certaintly tops the cake.
-renee