God's Will
Last night on my way to work i just cried out "LORD PREVENT ME IN ANYWAY THAT YOU HAVE TO FROM MAKING A WRONG LIFE CHOICE, I long to be in your perfect will" (Then i didn't think anything of it)
I went to work had a good shift, made some money and headed to my parents house to retreat, I needed to just get alone and i knew they were out of town. Well enroute i decided more than anything i just wanted to be near people i knew cared about me and i cared about them and watch a movie eat some icecream, so i called Michael who immeadiatly said "Hey are you watching movies now a days?" Yup only sometimes though, he said cool i have one we can watch so that's what i did ate icecream and watched a movie with Michael and his family. Slowly but surely each of his family members fell asleep, until finally i looked at Michael who was almost a zombie at that point and quietly excused myself. As i was leaving that place i really really, with everything in me wanted someone to cuddle with, at that point i was ready to call a guy i know is always up for that(Yeah all bad habits die hard, especially the flesh) Ummm......Luckily GOd said No, luckily i listened to Him say no because i'm fully aware that would have solved absolutely nothing.
So i arrive at my house resolved to be good and not call anyone that would make out with me, or cuddle with me or whatever, and i find that there are Stinky boy's in my parents basement on the computer and i can't even live journal like i want, great now i really wanted to just go out do something anything, but instead i fell asleep with all my clothes on watching Cosby, or Disney Chanell, waiting for someone to call.
Today, i woke up and had a long coversation with my Nana it was so hard..........I'm trying to be who God has called me to be and be involved in the things He wants me to be involved in and she had me read 2Theselonians 3 it was so good and The Lord really spoke to me through it, as in I shouldn't totally quit my job but i also shouldn't burn myself on both ends of the candel, i have to prioritize, what's most important where am i really headed in life, i know it's missions, but how do i get there, and when am i getting there? SO many questions floating around my head at this point?
It's 3:28am I'm beat can't think straight anymore so i'll continue later.........g'night all!
I went to work had a good shift, made some money and headed to my parents house to retreat, I needed to just get alone and i knew they were out of town. Well enroute i decided more than anything i just wanted to be near people i knew cared about me and i cared about them and watch a movie eat some icecream, so i called Michael who immeadiatly said "Hey are you watching movies now a days?" Yup only sometimes though, he said cool i have one we can watch so that's what i did ate icecream and watched a movie with Michael and his family. Slowly but surely each of his family members fell asleep, until finally i looked at Michael who was almost a zombie at that point and quietly excused myself. As i was leaving that place i really really, with everything in me wanted someone to cuddle with, at that point i was ready to call a guy i know is always up for that(Yeah all bad habits die hard, especially the flesh) Ummm......Luckily GOd said No, luckily i listened to Him say no because i'm fully aware that would have solved absolutely nothing.
So i arrive at my house resolved to be good and not call anyone that would make out with me, or cuddle with me or whatever, and i find that there are Stinky boy's in my parents basement on the computer and i can't even live journal like i want, great now i really wanted to just go out do something anything, but instead i fell asleep with all my clothes on watching Cosby, or Disney Chanell, waiting for someone to call.
Today, i woke up and had a long coversation with my Nana it was so hard..........I'm trying to be who God has called me to be and be involved in the things He wants me to be involved in and she had me read 2Theselonians 3 it was so good and The Lord really spoke to me through it, as in I shouldn't totally quit my job but i also shouldn't burn myself on both ends of the candel, i have to prioritize, what's most important where am i really headed in life, i know it's missions, but how do i get there, and when am i getting there? SO many questions floating around my head at this point?
It's 3:28am I'm beat can't think straight anymore so i'll continue later.........g'night all!