and its bad news. I dont blame, i do the same thing, I get lonely too.
All I ever want to do is sleep.
I think I would be fine with sleeping until summer or even better yet fall or maybe just sleeping for the rest of eternity.
My car is dying.
I feel like I am nowhere.
I wonder when there will be a time when I can explain exactly how I feel and someone will actually know what I mean.
I want to paint but I dont really want too.
So I'm going to go lay in my bed like I do every night and stare at my ceiling until I fall asleep.
You know what I feel like?
I feel like I knew myself ten times better 3 years ago then I do now.
And I hate questioning myself, confronting my self-esteem, being bothered by things and people that won't matter to me in a days, months, years time. Why do I have to see my self reflected through someone else? Its a flaw I absolutely hate to have and its one I never ever wanted to see in me.
I think I would be fine with sleeping until summer or even better yet fall or maybe just sleeping for the rest of eternity.
My car is dying.
I feel like I am nowhere.
I wonder when there will be a time when I can explain exactly how I feel and someone will actually know what I mean.
I want to paint but I dont really want too.
So I'm going to go lay in my bed like I do every night and stare at my ceiling until I fall asleep.
You know what I feel like?
I feel like I knew myself ten times better 3 years ago then I do now.
And I hate questioning myself, confronting my self-esteem, being bothered by things and people that won't matter to me in a days, months, years time. Why do I have to see my self reflected through someone else? Its a flaw I absolutely hate to have and its one I never ever wanted to see in me.