My new favourite song is MY IMMORTAL...or could you tell?
Title: But You Still Have All of Me. Part 1.
Author: Christina aka just me
Pairing: Seanlij, Monaboyd, Viggorli
Rating: PG
Summary: Just thoughts.
Authors Notes: Someday I will write something that is not inspired by a song…lol.
There’s nothing like feeling maudlin. All that sick, sappy, hollowing goodness. If you put on a sad song and just let the music flow over you and you can cry and cry…
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‘cause your presence still lingers here. And it won’t leave me alone.
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Sean wishes that it was like it was before. When he could call up Elijah up just to talk or whatever. In New Zealand it was like that. He and Lij had gotten so close during filming that he just knew that there was that special bond between them. Every touch sent a message. They were close. Like brothers. Even closer than brothers. Because they loved each other in ways that brothers never would. They never did anything sexual. Sean wouldn’t allow himself to cheat on Christine no matter if he loved someone else so much it hurt. But it really wasn’t all about sex. There was that connection there that surpassed any earthly feeling. Some part of them just knew, as they looked into each other’s eyes, that the place they were seeing in each other was too magical to leave New Zealand. But Sean had wanted it to. And he wishes he had it now.
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But now I’m bound by the life you left behind.
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Billy doesn’t want to get on with his life. He wants to be with Dom back in the country where they first met. They were so close that they could covey emotion with the slightest touch. But they never could leave it at that. The first time they made love it was amazing. The peace and calm inside that moment had set the stage for their relationship together. They learned that even though they had great on screen chemistry, they barely had to say a thing to one another when it was just them. But the fantastic dream had to have an ending. And when Dom went off to the land where he could be someone, Billy knew he’d lost what he had always wanted. Lately when he sees Dom, they feel compelled to talk and break that now uncomfortable silence they once shared. He never wanted things to change, but he forces himself to move on.
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I’m so tired of being here. Suppressed by all my childish fears.
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Viggo is alone and feels a little too old to be classified as sexy. He sometimes spies magazines in stores with him looking pretty damn good and silently praises the photographer. It takes some kind of skill to make someone look like that. He remembers when he felt truly sexy but it seems like ages ago. It was in the place where it all began. The place where he’d been in love with Orlando. Filming had taken up much of their time so they were hardly alone together, but they had both come to enjoy those brief moments they shared when the cameras weren’t rolling. When they could get away from prying eyes and just relax. He’d felt old then as well but somehow Orlando made him feel just a little bit younger. They did things together that he hadn’t done for quite some time before. Surfing, playing pranks and making out behind some trailer like high school kids. But Orlando had almost just come from high school. He wonders now if he was just going through a mid-life crises. Did he really love Orlando and vice-versa? He’s not sure if he wants to know that. Maybe he’ll find out that it was all a lie.
Author: Christina aka just me
Pairing: Seanlij, Monaboyd, Viggorli
Rating: PG
Summary: Just thoughts.
Authors Notes: Someday I will write something that is not inspired by a song…lol.
There’s nothing like feeling maudlin. All that sick, sappy, hollowing goodness. If you put on a sad song and just let the music flow over you and you can cry and cry…
*****
‘cause your presence still lingers here. And it won’t leave me alone.
*****
Sean wishes that it was like it was before. When he could call up Elijah up just to talk or whatever. In New Zealand it was like that. He and Lij had gotten so close during filming that he just knew that there was that special bond between them. Every touch sent a message. They were close. Like brothers. Even closer than brothers. Because they loved each other in ways that brothers never would. They never did anything sexual. Sean wouldn’t allow himself to cheat on Christine no matter if he loved someone else so much it hurt. But it really wasn’t all about sex. There was that connection there that surpassed any earthly feeling. Some part of them just knew, as they looked into each other’s eyes, that the place they were seeing in each other was too magical to leave New Zealand. But Sean had wanted it to. And he wishes he had it now.
*****
But now I’m bound by the life you left behind.
*****
Billy doesn’t want to get on with his life. He wants to be with Dom back in the country where they first met. They were so close that they could covey emotion with the slightest touch. But they never could leave it at that. The first time they made love it was amazing. The peace and calm inside that moment had set the stage for their relationship together. They learned that even though they had great on screen chemistry, they barely had to say a thing to one another when it was just them. But the fantastic dream had to have an ending. And when Dom went off to the land where he could be someone, Billy knew he’d lost what he had always wanted. Lately when he sees Dom, they feel compelled to talk and break that now uncomfortable silence they once shared. He never wanted things to change, but he forces himself to move on.
*****
I’m so tired of being here. Suppressed by all my childish fears.
*****
Viggo is alone and feels a little too old to be classified as sexy. He sometimes spies magazines in stores with him looking pretty damn good and silently praises the photographer. It takes some kind of skill to make someone look like that. He remembers when he felt truly sexy but it seems like ages ago. It was in the place where it all began. The place where he’d been in love with Orlando. Filming had taken up much of their time so they were hardly alone together, but they had both come to enjoy those brief moments they shared when the cameras weren’t rolling. When they could get away from prying eyes and just relax. He’d felt old then as well but somehow Orlando made him feel just a little bit younger. They did things together that he hadn’t done for quite some time before. Surfing, playing pranks and making out behind some trailer like high school kids. But Orlando had almost just come from high school. He wonders now if he was just going through a mid-life crises. Did he really love Orlando and vice-versa? He’s not sure if he wants to know that. Maybe he’ll find out that it was all a lie.