i'll probably use LiveJournal a lot more now....
Over the weekend, i did something drastic and lifechanging: i deleted my facebook account. I am completely serious about it being drastic and lifechanging. I just felt like the bad aspects of it were really starting to outweigh the good aspects. And although i loved how easy it was to communicate with people and know what was going on around campus, i felt like it was taking over my life. Every time i got an e-mail saying that someone had written on my wall or added a new picture of me, i would get so excited and i would check it right away. And if i hadn't gotten an e-mail lately, i would check it anyway, just to see what i was missing.
And i would secretly compare my profile to other people's profiles...and i would read my profile as if i were someone else and then try to judge how they would judge me. Seriously, it was bad...and i have been doing it for so long. I have joked a million times before about deleting it but it was always a joke because as much as i wanted to, i just knew i couldn't do it.
But i don't know what made it so easy to do this time. I went to a retreat this weekend and on Saturday morning, the speaker was talking about how society fills our heads with so many ungodly things that we seek in order to validate ourselves, like tabloids and tv shows and movies. And i just got to thinking about facebook and how i was looking for redemption in the amount of friends i had, or how many wall posts i could get, or the quantity of my pictures. I just wanted my life to look so good to others so that they would like me. But the truth is that other people's validation isn't going to get me anywhere in the end and i should constantly be doing things that bring me closer to God because the only person that can grant me redemption is Him and Him alone...not facebook.
The truth is that it is probably the hardest thing i've ever done though. I feel like i am constantly missing out on some big secret and i am so worried that if i am not on facebook, people will not take the extra time to shoot me an email or something. I feel so out of the loop. it's hard.
And i would secretly compare my profile to other people's profiles...and i would read my profile as if i were someone else and then try to judge how they would judge me. Seriously, it was bad...and i have been doing it for so long. I have joked a million times before about deleting it but it was always a joke because as much as i wanted to, i just knew i couldn't do it.
But i don't know what made it so easy to do this time. I went to a retreat this weekend and on Saturday morning, the speaker was talking about how society fills our heads with so many ungodly things that we seek in order to validate ourselves, like tabloids and tv shows and movies. And i just got to thinking about facebook and how i was looking for redemption in the amount of friends i had, or how many wall posts i could get, or the quantity of my pictures. I just wanted my life to look so good to others so that they would like me. But the truth is that other people's validation isn't going to get me anywhere in the end and i should constantly be doing things that bring me closer to God because the only person that can grant me redemption is Him and Him alone...not facebook.
The truth is that it is probably the hardest thing i've ever done though. I feel like i am constantly missing out on some big secret and i am so worried that if i am not on facebook, people will not take the extra time to shoot me an email or something. I feel so out of the loop. it's hard.