It’s not PMS if ENOUGH is ENOUGH
8:46 PM - It’s not PMS if ENOUGH is ENOUGH
Current mood: awake
Men never seem to disapoint when I wonder if they can say such egotistical pig headed shit... sooo, i'm a little "ANGRY" or whatever some want to call it... I'm not FUCKING PMSING... It's a brand new year. I have survived YET ANOTHER YEAR as me... I am only becoming stronger as a individual.
I admit I DID have a weakness for a certain individual... He DID fool me into thinking things were something they really weren't and perhaps it was the small optimistic part inside that wanted to hold onto the idea that sticking with him thru all the BS - the distance - thru EVERYTHING - perhaps - in the end - LOVE would prevail... But I guess as each night went on and the same shit - same bullshit played out - it really just prepared me for the enevitable: it's over.
Silly ole me. It's not like I was SOO INLOVE with being INLOVE like I have been before, it was more along the lines of being with someone and sharing and having that person there and hoping that ONE DAY all "this" would lead to something better between us... silly silly me. AND WE'RE BROKEN UP! Not silly - but foolish.
It's a new year. I want a new start. i am tired of the bullshit. fuck it. i am complicated. if you have talked to me - then YOU KNOW.
i just dont want to meet guys and talk and get to know one another when eventually he will do something stupid to piss me off... i have put up with enough bullshit that i am now stubburn and i dont compromise. take it or leave... but at the same time... i dont want a little bitch who takes its. so ya, i like the dumb assholes.... but then why kiss "XXX" goodbye? He is the PERFECT asshole. FUCKIN A+ Certified Genuine ASSHOLE.
who fucking knows? I'm crazy.
So - it's a new year. Time for a change. Time to REMOVE men from my life... I have a $50 bet with someone - I said I wouldn't date a military guy this year... since people think I have a thing for them since my last three boyfriends and peoples were in the military.... well, i lived in military town... at least I had some standards... they were all in the Special Forces Q course cept one... I just think the whole learning a new language, training other country armies, black hawk down type shit is you know, all dangerous and patriotic - it's hot -- BUT I am done - for the year at least :) with the military boys. NO MORE.
I'm not putting up with the dumb bullshit lies anymore. No more excuses. Be honest. Tell it like it is... Dont take things so damn serious. Take chances. Do crazy shit and then not regret it, but laugh about it. Try new things. Strive to be and do better and be around those who are better. Dont put yourself in situations where you will become weak. Stand up for something. Get to know yourself. Share yourself and love yourself...
Thats what my 2008 is going to be about. Fuck it if I have all these feelings and emotions. I'm not sorry for them. Not sorry when others piss me off. not sorry when they hurt me. Not sorry if others make me happy and NOT sorry i am who I am and have done the things I have. Everything has been an experiance. I dont hate anyone - just want to remove them my life temporairly and then when the time is right I will put them back in if they deserve to be in it.
I am me and that's all I can be.
Current mood: awake
Men never seem to disapoint when I wonder if they can say such egotistical pig headed shit... sooo, i'm a little "ANGRY" or whatever some want to call it... I'm not FUCKING PMSING... It's a brand new year. I have survived YET ANOTHER YEAR as me... I am only becoming stronger as a individual.
I admit I DID have a weakness for a certain individual... He DID fool me into thinking things were something they really weren't and perhaps it was the small optimistic part inside that wanted to hold onto the idea that sticking with him thru all the BS - the distance - thru EVERYTHING - perhaps - in the end - LOVE would prevail... But I guess as each night went on and the same shit - same bullshit played out - it really just prepared me for the enevitable: it's over.
Silly ole me. It's not like I was SOO INLOVE with being INLOVE like I have been before, it was more along the lines of being with someone and sharing and having that person there and hoping that ONE DAY all "this" would lead to something better between us... silly silly me. AND WE'RE BROKEN UP! Not silly - but foolish.
It's a new year. I want a new start. i am tired of the bullshit. fuck it. i am complicated. if you have talked to me - then YOU KNOW.
i just dont want to meet guys and talk and get to know one another when eventually he will do something stupid to piss me off... i have put up with enough bullshit that i am now stubburn and i dont compromise. take it or leave... but at the same time... i dont want a little bitch who takes its. so ya, i like the dumb assholes.... but then why kiss "XXX" goodbye? He is the PERFECT asshole. FUCKIN A+ Certified Genuine ASSHOLE.
who fucking knows? I'm crazy.
So - it's a new year. Time for a change. Time to REMOVE men from my life... I have a $50 bet with someone - I said I wouldn't date a military guy this year... since people think I have a thing for them since my last three boyfriends and peoples were in the military.... well, i lived in military town... at least I had some standards... they were all in the Special Forces Q course cept one... I just think the whole learning a new language, training other country armies, black hawk down type shit is you know, all dangerous and patriotic - it's hot -- BUT I am done - for the year at least :) with the military boys. NO MORE.
I'm not putting up with the dumb bullshit lies anymore. No more excuses. Be honest. Tell it like it is... Dont take things so damn serious. Take chances. Do crazy shit and then not regret it, but laugh about it. Try new things. Strive to be and do better and be around those who are better. Dont put yourself in situations where you will become weak. Stand up for something. Get to know yourself. Share yourself and love yourself...
Thats what my 2008 is going to be about. Fuck it if I have all these feelings and emotions. I'm not sorry for them. Not sorry when others piss me off. not sorry when they hurt me. Not sorry if others make me happy and NOT sorry i am who I am and have done the things I have. Everything has been an experiance. I dont hate anyone - just want to remove them my life temporairly and then when the time is right I will put them back in if they deserve to be in it.
I am me and that's all I can be.