I'm still here...

[just_jes]

I have been away from livejournal lately and have been posting on myspace, and deleting them too actually. I should've moved them here. I do miss the privacy here. This journal is public. School starts on Wednesday and hopefully i will find the feelings i need to pull me out of this emotional rut. i dont know why or what happened but i am back to thinking too damn much. possibly all the drinking. not sure. there really is so much more.

the boys and i are in a new house. i love it. they love it. school starts on the 25th for them.