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So, I haven't posted in forever. But I'm starting to realize its because I only post when I'm unhappy or extremly confused. I'm neither.
I'm really happy, I truely am. I have amazing best friends and an amazing boyfriend. I like my job and I'm getting out of debt. I'm becoming more and more independent. I haven't asked my dad for a cent. And it feels really good.
I've cut ties with those who deserve it. And mended bridges with the select few I forgave. But for the most part I have great drama, let me explain! I have drama about things that ACTUALLY matter. Instead of the he said she said bullshit that used to consume me.
Now, when I stress about something its usually a really big deal. My best friends are keeping me grounded and my boyfriend is teaching me optimisim. Which is something I've never been known for. I don't super over plan and I'm not expecting the worst. I've accepted that I'm not as rough as I used to be and part of me wants to have the "dream."
And it really isn't so bad when you have someone to live it with. I came to the conclusion that I have what people want and I was pushing it away. Literally, just shoving it off this metaphorical cliff. But I've stopped because she's right. I can't let what has happened before kill this relationship. And I definatly can't keep running.
So I put on flip flops and pulled up a seat. I'm sticking through this one. Its summertime and the livin's easy.
<3
I'm really happy, I truely am. I have amazing best friends and an amazing boyfriend. I like my job and I'm getting out of debt. I'm becoming more and more independent. I haven't asked my dad for a cent. And it feels really good.
I've cut ties with those who deserve it. And mended bridges with the select few I forgave. But for the most part I have great drama, let me explain! I have drama about things that ACTUALLY matter. Instead of the he said she said bullshit that used to consume me.
Now, when I stress about something its usually a really big deal. My best friends are keeping me grounded and my boyfriend is teaching me optimisim. Which is something I've never been known for. I don't super over plan and I'm not expecting the worst. I've accepted that I'm not as rough as I used to be and part of me wants to have the "dream."
And it really isn't so bad when you have someone to live it with. I came to the conclusion that I have what people want and I was pushing it away. Literally, just shoving it off this metaphorical cliff. But I've stopped because she's right. I can't let what has happened before kill this relationship. And I definatly can't keep running.
So I put on flip flops and pulled up a seat. I'm sticking through this one. Its summertime and the livin's easy.
<3