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The feeling of spring could not have came about at a better time. The one thing I've needed in so long is something of optimism, and the weather really did it! Brings me back old feelings of summer happiness, which brings me new hope for the summer and other future goals. I've been going on lovely walks downtown, with both emily and lauryn, in the last 2 days, not to mention just hanging out outside. People watching, running into old pals I haven't seen in so long. Its incredibly refreshing. I feel like my friendship with Dj has been restored a bit. We hung out tonight, and I feel like things will genuinely be better between us. He feels like an actual person and best friend again. Our conversations have meaning again. And as far as eric, I still haven't been able to see him since our breakup, and as much as id like us to still do so, I've finally realized with this new found optimism that I have more important things to focus on now. And to no longer be hung up on past thoughts is an amazing feeling. Its not like i'm over it all... but things feel right again. I'm not sure why i always felt like I wanted him, even when I knew there were better things. I wonder why we trap ourselves, wanting something we know won't make us happy. I finally have a chance to step out and be free with what i want to do next. I need something new and refreshing.Gosh it already feels good!
Don't have any real plans for spring break... this week I'll be seeing rachel and laura again, maybe eric during the weekend if it actually works out this time around. But the following week will consist of me at home, cleaning with the fam. chyayyyy.
Don't have any real plans for spring break... this week I'll be seeing rachel and laura again, maybe eric during the weekend if it actually works out this time around. But the following week will consist of me at home, cleaning with the fam. chyayyyy.