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One year ago today.
Was when me and Kevin started going out.
I know, don't even say it.
I have to get over it.
But I can't.
I talked to him on the phone this mornign for like 30 minutes and idk it was weird. We kept talkng about like when we used to go out and stuff and its just so weird to hear like "yeah, but thats the past. it doesnt matter anymore" and all the other topic changing sentences like that. haha. Uh, yesterday was a snow day. So kelly came over for the day. And we watched movies. And then Edward called at like 7 and he was like "me and bobby are coming over" so i was like "alright." cause i told him I'd hang out with them so Kelly left and Marissa came over. And all 4 of us just hung out. It was so good to see them. It's been like 4 months or something since we've hung out like the old days. We were all talking about like how everything in my room reminds us of something. Its true though. Every single thing you look at like has a memory to go along with it. Those friday and saturday nights last year where we were all so happy and would just come to my house and hang out for hours and hours and have so much fun. I just miss it, I guess. Not anymore though. I'm gonna keep telling myself I'm over that. It's the past. I gotta move on. As much as I want to though, it just doesn't work. I don't know...as much as you wanna forget all this stuff, you can't. And I wish things could go back to the way they were so bad. But that's just a waste of time. It's time to accept everything that changed. Jeez, thats gonna take a while. =\
Was when me and Kevin started going out.
I know, don't even say it.
I have to get over it.
But I can't.
I talked to him on the phone this mornign for like 30 minutes and idk it was weird. We kept talkng about like when we used to go out and stuff and its just so weird to hear like "yeah, but thats the past. it doesnt matter anymore" and all the other topic changing sentences like that. haha. Uh, yesterday was a snow day. So kelly came over for the day. And we watched movies. And then Edward called at like 7 and he was like "me and bobby are coming over" so i was like "alright." cause i told him I'd hang out with them so Kelly left and Marissa came over. And all 4 of us just hung out. It was so good to see them. It's been like 4 months or something since we've hung out like the old days. We were all talking about like how everything in my room reminds us of something. Its true though. Every single thing you look at like has a memory to go along with it. Those friday and saturday nights last year where we were all so happy and would just come to my house and hang out for hours and hours and have so much fun. I just miss it, I guess. Not anymore though. I'm gonna keep telling myself I'm over that. It's the past. I gotta move on. As much as I want to though, it just doesn't work. I don't know...as much as you wanna forget all this stuff, you can't. And I wish things could go back to the way they were so bad. But that's just a waste of time. It's time to accept everything that changed. Jeez, thats gonna take a while. =\