sorry for the long entry.. have fun reading how i really feel........
I cried yesterday, a lot for that matter.
I had some help relizing something and its true.
I need some real friends. I know that may
sound really weird and mean for that matter,
but i need friends who arent gunna leave me
and lie to me and be my best friend one min
and then turn on me the next and try and
steal my friends away from me. Im 15 years
old, i dont think its supose to be like this.
And not 1 person can tell me its my fault because
its really not at all. Its weird because when i
was little i was use to haveing a best friend
next door, a best friend across the train tracks,
and a best friend across jerico, and they all moved.
And then other friend started coming in one min
acting as my best friend and left the next and
became my enimy and then tried to become my best
friend again, but now that i relize that the same
thing happense everything time its not gunna be like
that this time.
Dominque, margie, ashley, and natatlia i really miss
you guys. I really need you to come back! its not fair!
<-- Im not saying everyone. Because there are the few
who are my best friends. Well kailtin. Thanks for always
being there. Im sorry you had to read this, but even
you know how it is with everyone else. I know what ever
you do its for the good of me because you are MY best
friend and youve told me that before. Thank you.
Karen, i know we are not as close as we use to be,
but its okay. You are still there for me and i would
like to think im there for you to. thanks.
I dont really feel like writeing any more about this.
Didnt go to school today. I feel so sick. I went to sleep
and i was like dieing. I was really hot and i had a really
bad head ache. And now i feel like im gunna throw up. =(
Im gunna go lay down or try and eat something. I really
dont wanna throw up and i dont wanna be sick right now.
As bad as this sounds, i wanna be in school right now
and now be sick. =(
I love you so much John. Thank you for everything baby.<33
I had some help relizing something and its true.
I need some real friends. I know that may
sound really weird and mean for that matter,
but i need friends who arent gunna leave me
and lie to me and be my best friend one min
and then turn on me the next and try and
steal my friends away from me. Im 15 years
old, i dont think its supose to be like this.
And not 1 person can tell me its my fault because
its really not at all. Its weird because when i
was little i was use to haveing a best friend
next door, a best friend across the train tracks,
and a best friend across jerico, and they all moved.
And then other friend started coming in one min
acting as my best friend and left the next and
became my enimy and then tried to become my best
friend again, but now that i relize that the same
thing happense everything time its not gunna be like
that this time.
Dominque, margie, ashley, and natatlia i really miss
you guys. I really need you to come back! its not fair!
<-- Im not saying everyone. Because there are the few
who are my best friends. Well kailtin. Thanks for always
being there. Im sorry you had to read this, but even
you know how it is with everyone else. I know what ever
you do its for the good of me because you are MY best
friend and youve told me that before. Thank you.
Karen, i know we are not as close as we use to be,
but its okay. You are still there for me and i would
like to think im there for you to. thanks.
I dont really feel like writeing any more about this.
Didnt go to school today. I feel so sick. I went to sleep
and i was like dieing. I was really hot and i had a really
bad head ache. And now i feel like im gunna throw up. =(
Im gunna go lay down or try and eat something. I really
dont wanna throw up and i dont wanna be sick right now.
As bad as this sounds, i wanna be in school right now
and now be sick. =(
I love you so much John. Thank you for everything baby.<33