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Yeah, Mary slept over Thursday night and all was fun and mary-ness. Heh heh. Then Friday we walked to BK and had a nice conversation about never looking the beast in the brown-eye. EJ picked us up and we drove around for a while, Mary being "innocently molested" muchly. :P
So on Mary's and my way back to the house it was EJ, Paul, her and me in the car. Paul and I were in the back seat and I was talking about how I was upset that Joe had starting smoking again. He got really kind of quiet and was like "I think it's because he wants to escape. It hurts him not being with you."
I just wish he would take the pain of not being with me and put it to a better use. Like trying to fix what he thinks is wrong.
It hurts to feel like this.
He says that I ask for the impossible, him when we first met; I just wanted it to be like it used to in the love and consideration sense.
Sometimes I just want out of my head.
I love you
and it's those words that take a piece of me everyday.
And I hate to write things about this all.
I don't want him to be mad at me.
I'm sorry.
So on Mary's and my way back to the house it was EJ, Paul, her and me in the car. Paul and I were in the back seat and I was talking about how I was upset that Joe had starting smoking again. He got really kind of quiet and was like "I think it's because he wants to escape. It hurts him not being with you."
I just wish he would take the pain of not being with me and put it to a better use. Like trying to fix what he thinks is wrong.
It hurts to feel like this.
He says that I ask for the impossible, him when we first met; I just wanted it to be like it used to in the love and consideration sense.
Sometimes I just want out of my head.
I love you
and it's those words that take a piece of me everyday.
And I hate to write things about this all.
I don't want him to be mad at me.
I'm sorry.