death of forever.

[just_evaporate]

yeah, be gentle when you comment about this.

A car horn blares.
i wipe black tears from my eyes.
i'm aware you are leaving for the last time,
but for a moment I fake strong as
you walk away.
it's not that i can even imagine you gone
without tearing down these walls-
only easier to pretend you're coming back.
i just wanted you to stay here forever
in my arms.
so i lied and said i'm not going to break.
bandaged my scars and
held your hand as you slept.
so you wouldn't let go.
just yet.
.i'm sorry that i only do the things that make us both cry.
suppose my love comes in tears and
it's leaving me all
at this loss of words.
come over again, sugar,
take back that and that;
replace harsh words
with ice cream and feathers
and happily ever after.
i guess i thought you'd never leave.
but those love songs were just too perfect,
a promise of the fairy tale
i'd always wanted.
i never saw it before it came,
always with my eyes on the top of the mountain,
not realizing that it had crumbled at my feet.
i've fallen.
and you're not here to pick me up.
always and forever never lasts that long.