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man i am so tired of being sick. it's been sooo long since i went to bed without a fever. i thought i was going to melt the other night, honestly, i did not had a thermometer to measure my fever but i've never had a fever that high :(. just laying there unable to move or talk and i felt psychotic. the doctor told me i had mono last week which made sense cause of the symptoms. but she called yesterday after doing blood work and said i don't have mono but she is very concerned so i should go see her. around that time it started getting worse. fevers got worse and now the shit going on in my lymph nodes is just creeping me the fuck out. theres something in my neck that feels so fucking weird and wrong that it makes me want to cry. it's distinctly not like the other one, you can feel something there that's legitimately terrifying. i don't even want to touch it again. i guess i'll just try not to worry and go to the doctor over break. ughhh i shouldn't have written about it cause now i feel scared. but i guess that is just part of being so bored. it's probably nothing to worry about. my roommate went home for break and left her stuff everywhere so that really kind of annoyed me. she's not going to be here for a few weeks and i figured she could have cleaned up at least some of her shit because it's taking over. i really hope i get offered housing on campus next semester. oh and huge intimidating bio exam on tuesday ahhhhh