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There's this heaviness that seems to be constantly thrusted upon me that I can't escape. Every emotion appears to be dulled down and brings me to a state of passive excitement. It probably doesn't make sense but every thing that would normally make me cry is just absorbed and something to make me really happy is just like a little bonus for the day. I'm not explaining this that well I know because it's hard to explain. Everytime I laugh with pure joy there's something that goes off that reminds me of something to dull the emotion. All in all, I hope no one that reads this ever has this happen to them. It's not some monumentally disturbing occurence but it's bothering me as of now.
I want to smile and not think twice about it. I want to be gutsy and not think it's unwanted or it will be misinterpretted. School's over and summer has begun. I'm looking not to find, but define myself this summer. I strive to feel alive.
Bye!
I want to smile and not think twice about it. I want to be gutsy and not think it's unwanted or it will be misinterpretted. School's over and summer has begun. I'm looking not to find, but define myself this summer. I strive to feel alive.
Bye!