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[just_dont_do_it]

im scared
im worried that it will all come back
the doctors, the ivs, the pain
every little thing worries me that i will lose what i have regained
but lose it again
no ones understands the things they take for granted and what it would be like to lose them
imagine if you couldnt walk or every inch you moved hurt like hell
i just want this feeling to go away forever
but every 3 months it comes back
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