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It's funny how things change..
Just last year I was ranting about how I'm going home for the summer and away from him.
getting my life back together.
Couldn't wait to get back to Damascus to my girls.
and we had an amazing summer all together.
this year..
I'm not even sure how I feel.
my bestfriend cares about nothing but her new boyfriend.
or so it seems.
a boyfriend that i don't even get along with.
which has never happened before.
so u can imagine how much time her and I are spending together.
and I'm dreading getting a summer job.
I don't feel like towson is a place i need to escape anymore.
things have settled, and I have friends here I love.
I will have an apartment out here over the summer.
so I can visit when I want.
but will i have time?
at least one thing is the same as last year....a fucked up ankle.
yaay.
I'm going to Las Vegas, Seattle, Victoria, and NC this summer.
the summer is all up in the air.
so i guess thats exciting, but it hasn't caught up with me yet.
i guess I feel sorta...just ...blah.
and thats kinda depressing in itself..I'm on the verge of summer.
my favorite time ever and I'm not even able to be happy.
or maybe I'm just stressed out.
since I'm sitting in the middle of a rediculiously full room that needs to be put in boxes.
but this summer also puts me a step closer to the real world.
which I've been stressing over a lot latley.
whats my next step?
straight into grad classes?
or get a crap psych degree job that wont pay shit?
and how long will i live with my parents?
uggh...I want to be 9 again.
that was a good year.
another confusing thing..
I think I have my first crush in like 6 years..
and it's on someone who is basically unaccessible at the time.
or someone that i didn't notice in that way before.
and the time has passed.
it's a very odd situation.
so i guess it's good I only see him about 4 times a year.
and with his new project...I'm sure this will only get worse.
if anyone knows of a chill place to bartend or whatnot.
where I can do my make-up as crazy as i want.
let a girl know.
I need a fun job before I go into the career of fucked up children :)
I should prolly be using this summer to build a resume in psych.
but I'm not that pressed.
ok...time to pack.
Just last year I was ranting about how I'm going home for the summer and away from him.
getting my life back together.
Couldn't wait to get back to Damascus to my girls.
and we had an amazing summer all together.
this year..
I'm not even sure how I feel.
my bestfriend cares about nothing but her new boyfriend.
or so it seems.
a boyfriend that i don't even get along with.
which has never happened before.
so u can imagine how much time her and I are spending together.
and I'm dreading getting a summer job.
I don't feel like towson is a place i need to escape anymore.
things have settled, and I have friends here I love.
I will have an apartment out here over the summer.
so I can visit when I want.
but will i have time?
at least one thing is the same as last year....a fucked up ankle.
yaay.
I'm going to Las Vegas, Seattle, Victoria, and NC this summer.
the summer is all up in the air.
so i guess thats exciting, but it hasn't caught up with me yet.
i guess I feel sorta...just ...blah.
and thats kinda depressing in itself..I'm on the verge of summer.
my favorite time ever and I'm not even able to be happy.
or maybe I'm just stressed out.
since I'm sitting in the middle of a rediculiously full room that needs to be put in boxes.
but this summer also puts me a step closer to the real world.
which I've been stressing over a lot latley.
whats my next step?
straight into grad classes?
or get a crap psych degree job that wont pay shit?
and how long will i live with my parents?
uggh...I want to be 9 again.
that was a good year.
another confusing thing..
I think I have my first crush in like 6 years..
and it's on someone who is basically unaccessible at the time.
or someone that i didn't notice in that way before.
and the time has passed.
it's a very odd situation.
so i guess it's good I only see him about 4 times a year.
and with his new project...I'm sure this will only get worse.
if anyone knows of a chill place to bartend or whatnot.
where I can do my make-up as crazy as i want.
let a girl know.
I need a fun job before I go into the career of fucked up children :)
I should prolly be using this summer to build a resume in psych.
but I'm not that pressed.
ok...time to pack.