In a much better state
So I went to work after writing all that, feeling like absolute shit. I sit down and get ready to start calling people and decide I need something to make it all bearable. I set my wallet up like a little photo holder and look at Jonnie's picture while I make my calls. Suddenly I don't feel so bad and everything starts to be okay. By the time I leave, i am starting to feel all kindsa good again. Not happy, but okay. Thanks babe, for looking upon me with a smile.