life and death
Goin away next weekend to see my grandma for what is prettymuch undoubtably going to be the last time. Very very wierd feeling about this. Like...it's actual pressure to bond with her cause I'll never get to again. Just so strange. We all take life for granted. We never really think about what a gift we've been given or how finite it is and then it just one day poof up and vanishes and you never get to experience it or anything else for that matter again. And yet even the death of a loved one isn't enough to shake most of us out of our walking sleep. We all just go about our routine everyday, go to work for half the day to pay for the house that we come home to to eat and sleep in, just to get up the next morning and do the same thing. It seems like we spend half our life working, like a quarter sleeping and then in the time in between work and sleep stressing about material things. I don't wanna be a part of it. I don't know how to beat it, the system is very strong, but I refuse to be just another wheel that endlessly turns for it, only to expire to be replaced by something else. I want to mean something. More than that I want to do what I want. Every year of my life seems to go by faster than the last and if I only have say 70 more and they're gonna go by faster than the last 19 it just makes no sense to spend half of it doing something I hate. Don't we all wanna do that though? How do I avoid getting sucked in like everybody else? I don't know I got a few basic idea's though. Break your routine, do what you love, take chances, travel, don't take everything so seriously, go for what you want, don't be afraid to talk to strangers, never say never, try anything, don't worry about what people think about you, spend your time with the people you love and always make sure to make time for yourself. They're not gonna get me without a fight. I AM SIGNIFICANT!!!!....screamed the dust speck.
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