right
Fat...
Ugly...
Inadequate...
those are the fellings i am having right now...
and no i am not doing this so people will say " oh no heather your pretty," or shit like that, cause i don't care whether people read this or not, i just need to rant
i've always been self conscious about my figure and looks,
but at somepoint i didn't, this past year got better, i didn't care as much,
i decided, fuck the world i could care less...not any more
i went out tonight with some of my friends, and got draged into holister, american eagle, and areopostal...
and everytime i saw an employee the just gave me that look the " what the hell are you doing here" look...
and it made me realize how unhappy i am with how i look, what i weigh, and how i feel in general, i have never felt so out of place before in my life, i wanted to cry, i felt so bad, and compltly Inadequate..
i dunno, maybe that makes me crazy... but once just once, i would love to go to a place like that and not be looked at the way i was tonight
Ugly...
Inadequate...
those are the fellings i am having right now...
and no i am not doing this so people will say " oh no heather your pretty," or shit like that, cause i don't care whether people read this or not, i just need to rant
i've always been self conscious about my figure and looks,
but at somepoint i didn't, this past year got better, i didn't care as much,
i decided, fuck the world i could care less...not any more
i went out tonight with some of my friends, and got draged into holister, american eagle, and areopostal...
and everytime i saw an employee the just gave me that look the " what the hell are you doing here" look...
and it made me realize how unhappy i am with how i look, what i weigh, and how i feel in general, i have never felt so out of place before in my life, i wanted to cry, i felt so bad, and compltly Inadequate..
i dunno, maybe that makes me crazy... but once just once, i would love to go to a place like that and not be looked at the way i was tonight