wow

[just_a_shell]

wow..my lifes kinda buggin me right now, and i need a boyfriend son or im gonna explode..i know that sounds dumb and petty but if people could only understand my head..hey if i could understand it..but yeah schools finnally going okay , my negatives are turnning out to be amazing latly and mr. cooks verypleased..which make sme happy, culinarys a joke and ive had just about enough of matt trying to boss everyone around like hes head chef...btu besides the point, not that this is a horrible thing, cause have absolutly nothing against people who decide to be homosexula, but i've had to correct at least 10 people who seemed to all have the notion that im a lesbian, and i wonder why i don't have a oyfriend. but i just don't get it, do i let off an air w/ how i act or look or speak..i dunno i wish someone could explain it to me...plus i got asked out by like 6 girls over the summer, people i didn't evenknow who just came up to me and asked me out...but i cna't get a guy to save my life...this makes me sad...and depressed(not real depressed) and hoem life is starting to be a reck and i find the sadder i am the less i eat the more uset my mom gets causeshe thinks i do it on purpose and that just leads to everything being worse..i ahve no idea whats going on w/ my life i wish someone could tell me what to do and solve all my prolems for me..i wish wishing actually worked cause theni wouldn't have to hide how sad i am and how fake i am to everybody... and i hate being the kind of person who can't care it sucks alot, and i hate being the person people relie on people talk to w/ their problems, and their secrets cause it's too much for me , and i do it anyway why cause i can't not care, it dosen't work i always care, way too much and i wish i didn't i wish i was a cold heartless bitch that everyone hated sometimes, and people don't get it, i can't be a happy person 24/7 all though peole seem to have this veiw of me..i dunno this turned into a very long rant..and if you've read this far im sorry for wasting atleast 3 minutes of your life...

what ever...life is slowly becoming not worth it for me...