Fed up with life...
Im so tired of everything and almost everyone right now except for a few people. (You know who you are). But im tired of the bullshit that is going around with a lot of the people i know. seriously, everyone is talking shit about everyone. i have a little bit, i admit. but its too much, everyone is doing it. Im trying to get over danny and say "f*** this shit!" i dont want to like him anymore and i will eventually get over him, but im hurt. this all hurts so much. i cant handle it. Mary made me feel better last night... of course! Thank you Mom! = ] but i dont know what to do. hammie went and told me that he told amie that he liked her at the carnival and she thought that it would be good news to me. WTF?! Seriously. How the hell is that good news? can you explain that to me please?? ughh whatev. and i saw them yesterday, and yea...i dunno. hammie was all cheerful and nice, and amie didnt say hi or anything, and the thing is... i know she saw me. so i dont know what the hell is going on. im trying to get over Will and sean. i dont stand a chance with either... its true and i am fine with admitting that.
but on a different note. last weekend was interesting.. definately fun. definately some parts that i wish i could turn around and redo COMPLETELY. like, you have no idea. especially calling Will and telling him that i thought i was losing him as a friend to amie and hammie because i never really get a chance to talk to him or hang out. I mean, the only chance i get to hang out with him is when i sneak afterschool and talk to him late at night when im half dead anyways. and its all surface talk now. whatever. and then i admitted that i didnt want to have the feelings that i have for him anymore and that i didnt want to like him anymore because it hurt too much.. sooo... yea. it sucks ass.
but i have to go and work on a project and hope that i can sleep next hour! = D
ttyl! ♥
but on a different note. last weekend was interesting.. definately fun. definately some parts that i wish i could turn around and redo COMPLETELY. like, you have no idea. especially calling Will and telling him that i thought i was losing him as a friend to amie and hammie because i never really get a chance to talk to him or hang out. I mean, the only chance i get to hang out with him is when i sneak afterschool and talk to him late at night when im half dead anyways. and its all surface talk now. whatever. and then i admitted that i didnt want to have the feelings that i have for him anymore and that i didnt want to like him anymore because it hurt too much.. sooo... yea. it sucks ass.
but i have to go and work on a project and hope that i can sleep next hour! = D
ttyl! ♥