why is it always like this?
first of all, i am calm. i was calm on the phone. i havent yelled, or called names, or "dogged" or "slammed" you or anything else you may think. stop being so defenisve about all of this. no one is trying to attack you!
i have problems with my friends coming into my house without calling. i have problems with my friends coming to my house when i am not here. i have problems with my friends using my things and not putting them back. i have problems with my friends taking showers in my house and wearing my clothes, without my permission. no, i may not care, but it is RESPECTFUL to ask. this is all i have been trying to get across. the above actions are not OK. they overstep my personal boundries. i WILL say no.
chele, i love you but you have to take care of yourself. learn to tell people no, you can be assertive without being agressive. i dont think you owe me anything except to not do those things listed above. thats all i am asking. if thats too hard, then thats ok. if you need friends that show love through SERVITUDE and SACRIFICE then i dunno what to tell you. im sure there is a happy medium to servitude and sacrifice in where it is healthy, and yet not codependant. im not sure if i understand that medium yet. but i WILL speak up and i WILL say how i feel.
i try to do this in a positive and assertive manner. it doesnt help anyone to scream " i cant take this bullshit blah blah blah". if i didnt go about it the right way, then thats my bad. not doing something correctly is a dumb ass reason to lose friends. however, i had to get these points across. it seriously bothers me when you just stop by and that you just use whatever you want of mine when i'm not here....its not OK and i expected this reaction whole heartedly.
im sorry you got glass in your foot and jeff got jumped, or whatever happened.....if you wanted to talk, you could have asked to talk, not for three bucks. i dont even give a fuck about that anymore. (the three bucks that is) because you know when i can i will help you out. what have i ever done for you? i think you need to think about that a little more.
i dont think ANYONE owes me shit. thats YOUR complex, and its just easier for you to see it in me than it is to look at yourself. so thats ok too. thats just my opinion. im young and i dont know everything, but i think YOU have got to start to take care of yourself. you could have told me no. why didnt you? it was your first week of school....if you decided that getting me to the airport was more important than that, well that was your decision.
im done with this. all i ask is that you respect my space, call before you come over, stuff like that. thats all. im sure there are things i do that piss you off that i dont realize piss you off. i know you dont do this shit to hurt me. you should know i dont do it to hurt you. but if we dont ever communicate on any level other than screaming and name calling, i'm not going to communicate with you at all.
we need to exchange things.
please take care of youself. do good in school and continue to be a good mom to austin. i hope you can find a job soon if you havent already found one.