i fucking love kate bush
i think it's wierd how relationships go through changes. i've been thinking a lot about that today. i was at mikes house and we were just chilling and i was thinking about our relationship as a whole, i guess. and then i thought about everything in the beginning and how i used to think of him and how i used to think of our relationship, and everything is completely different now. i'm not complaining at all, because i love him just the same and more obviously. but it is odd to look back on the things that i used to get excited about that simply don't exist in our relationship anymore. my reasoning behind this is we're obviously not a "new" couple anymore, and i guess thats why all these things don't happen anymore. but seriously, i used to get excited when i went to work, because i knew it was going to be a automatic thing that i would see mike on my break and of course after work, and he would always come over to my house after and stay as late as i begged him or my parents to, i used to love talking on the phone and hanging up like for the night or something, and he would call me back just to say i love you or something. haha also i used to call him in the wee hours of the morning like if i couldn't sleep or something and immediately apoligize for calling so late and waking him up, just so he would say "i'm glad you did," that always blew my mind becuase i know that if he called me and woke me up or something i know for a fact i wouldn't be nearly that sweet or pleasant. i used to love it when he bought me flowers and we woud drive around in his truck blasting the cranberries with thumping subs like lame - ossssss or when we would walk and sit in "the spot" at the arbo. i don't know, i'm not sad, because we do all sorts of things now too, their just different less innocent things, or just "the ususal things." we DO play tony hawk constantly now which is fucking baller and i love it. i don't know, i guess i'm just reflecting becuase i can't sleep and he is asleep and i love him and wish i was talking to him instead of writing in my livejournal like a fucking lame ass. whatever, i think i will go brush my teeth now, with the cutest ice cream tooth brush that mike bought me. i'm so pathetic, i somtimes wonder if it's possible to love someone more than i love him because sometimes when i look at him it just hurts i'm so damn full of emotion. i hope that never goes away, and i hope him meaning the world to me never goes away either.
also i dyed my hair......... whaaaaaaaaaaat?!?!?!?